Once More Unto The Breach, Dear Friends, Once More

Bill Shakespeare, Henry V

I got my first dose of the ruby red poison this morning after being amply premedicated to prevent nausea.
"Premedicated," now there's a word. Is it a paradox or an oxymoron? They premedicate you with medicine so...

I digress.

My most excellent Nurse Julie pushed it into my IV and I watched red line in the tube snake into my chest. I expected a bigger reaction. I expected to feel something. But all I felt was my own anxiety. I popped an ATRA and drove home.

Now I wait. I wait for my hair to fall out again. I wait to see if I get diarrhea or constipation on the side effect roulette. I wait for my blood to die.

And I wait to go back tomorrow and do it again.